My sweetheart,
Happy 21st birthday..
No matter how far the distance is, my heart will always by your side..
Promise you.. Never and ever let the sadness come to you again... I wish to celebrate every single birthday of you each year.. I want to be your love always. Love you
2 years, it's another 14 that we both wish to make our promise to each other again. This is another memorable day that we have to celebrate with miles of distance between us. Nevertheless, I am glad enough. Cuz with him, I am loved.
This is the cake that he booked for me online. Actually it did not look like this online, according to him, it was a nice black forest cake. But due to the place I am in now, which is India, you can't expect too high. And this is the best we could have.
Anyhow, it was really a surprise. Roses and cakes for my birthday and our anniversary. If you ask me what wish did I make for my birthday, I have only one. But I guess I couldn't ask for more. All these should temporarily 'replace' him.
So many stories that we have been through... Separation, quarreling, nothing that we have escaped.My Block Exam is just around the corner. Loads of notes....where to start? when to start? how to start???@.@
In the midst of my pressure, my dear HIM, naughtily, pulled me out from this miserable, unbearable stress by attracting me into games. Such a bad idea right? Alluring me into games just before exams.. But I really appreciate his effort. BECAUSE... what makes me happy AND satisfied to the fullest is...
One of my sweetest things that I have ever had...
I know supper will never be a good thing, especially for girls, right? But somehow, a simple supper became my favourite, even my memory. And this is the reason why...
When I was in Penang, we were really spending almost all of our time together, not to miss any moment. There was this day that both of us went out and did whatever couple do, but still I did not want to let him go home.. However time did not permit us, it was almost 1 am and there was no reason to let him stay with me anymore.
So, after he went back, suddenly I came out with this idea to tell him that I was very hungry and my instant noodles were all out of stock. (I know I am so cruel but you see, I have to..hehe..) But he rejected me. He said it was already 1am and there was no stall outside anymore. Forcing to see the truth, I have no choice and so I gave up.
Half an hour later, the doorbell rang. Oh my god, my supper is here?!
I saw him standing outside with his helmet on his one hand and lifting my food in another hand. He accompanied me to finish the whole plate of 'char koay kak' which I missed it so much in India, then only he went back. And of course, I was happy enough...
On that moment, I really thought he is my superman. Even he was so tired driving me around Penang whole day and now it was already over midnight, he would still do anything for me..and I really mean ANYTHING.
I remember the way he hold his helmet on his one hand, I think he is so handsome.. The way his eyes looking at me, as if I am a pampered girl, I feel like I have nothing else to be worried. There will always be someone, who cares little little things of what I am thinking, who cares if my stomach is empty, who cares if my night is quiet and lonely.
'Honey, you are just as sweet as you can be'
This song pops into my mind now when I am missing him now... It is an old song, but still I love to dedicate this to my pretty boy~kai zhian. I love you...
29/2/08 the third day,
History is repeating. We were back to the same situation again. This time both of us were quite calm. We knew what lies ahead, and we knew we couldn't avoid it. The 3rd time... After I checked in, we went to the viewing area where one of the plane is going to fly me away from Malaysia. We just sat there, looking at the night view outside. We were more matured this time. My mood did not swing. Lying on his shoulder with his arms on me, what was on my mind was just a blank page. Calmly lean on him, simply to just feel his existence.
And then when I was back again, this is the best part.
22/8/08, the fourth day,
As usual, I planned everything, and of course, to surprise her again. I told I will be waiting for her in Penang Airport, together with her family. But the fact is, I had bought myself the same air ticket from KL to Penang with her. Many a times I felt like want to admit everything that I lied. But for the sake of seeing what her reactions would be, I have to do it=) And of course, not without roses.
When I just arrived in the airport, I settle my check-in. Just as I was taking an escalator down, I saw a familiar figure. Oh my god, that was my dear! I did not know what she was doing there because her flight was a transit flight and she was not supposed to be out here.. She did not notice I was there, I ran silently towards her, hugging her from her back.
HAHA..Actually it was due to the mistakes when I checked-in in India, I had to check in another time in KL. So, instead of him giving me surprise, me too had taken him into a shock. And of course I was shocked too, very very much shocked when someone suddenly hugged me. And when I turned my head and saw the face which I missed so much, I thought I was dreaming.
Again, I whispered to her ear, " My dear, I miss you so much". I can still remember her reactions till now. Her confusing yet happy face, and the way she kept asking me whether she had reached Penang, it melted my heart very much. Yes, it was really worth it to give her another surprise. And I love it very much:)
However, the surprise was not over yet. When I told her that I need to go to the restroom, I asked her to unlock my luggage to take something important. (Flowers were inside)
Roses?! Why are there roses in his luggage? My favourite flowers... What can I say? He is so loving...He must have spent his time and effort, planning all these, just to make me smile. And I am really touched... He had made the airport not the place of separation, but a very pleasant and unforgettable memory for me.
'I love you'
(The End)
After that day, the next date we meet each other is half year later. The same old airport, KLIA, the place where he had to let go his hand off mine. I couldn't sleep the night before, thinking and wondering, recollecting the feelings of his grip again. Wondering whether the gap of half a year of separation has made him different at all. Thinking if he is still as warm as he used to be .. It was like my first date with him again, feeling anxious yet excited.
4/2/08, the second day,
The day which I had been awaited for very long time.
The morning bird chirps and I woke up in a sudden. Gosh! 4.30 am..and I still have not readied to welcome her to my house yet. Panic, nervous, all kinds of feelings in me as I knew that the arrival time had been advanced 1 hour earlier. Putting on my shirt with a white blazer, conveying a bouquet of rose on my hand, heading to Putrajaya Sentral, getting myself ready and perfect for my dearest girlfriend.
I was walking with my heartbeats pounding loudly ireegularly. All eyes were focused on me as I was holding a big bouquet of roses. Though it was not the time for me to feel shy. In fact, I was always smiling as I could feel her getting closer and closer..
I rushed to the arrival hall, impatiently waiting to surprise her. Another 12 mins.. I was starting to feel nervous, and uncomfortable too. I really don't know how should I react firstly. I have no idea, should I smile first then only approach her? Or should I immediately hug her when I see her? Or should I give her the flowers then pulling her near me? I started talking to myself, rehearsing my line in front of the glass.
It's time. 8.20 am, I saw her walking out from the gate, looking around for me. I slowly walked towards her, quietly, and trying to catch the glimpse of her eyes. When she finally eyeing me, immediately I hug her as tight as possible. Then, I could smell the familiar scent of her hair again. Yes, she is definitely my sweetheart. She is still mine.
This is the picture where we took from the airport outside. See my face so fat right? Ya, I just had the most blissful breakfast in my life. He actually cooked me a western meal, with roses on the table n all our photos hanging on the wall. Unfortunately, I was so regret that I forgot to take photos of his room. Maybe, I was too full of happiness. I was really too happy.
Then in the airport again where we were waiting for our next flight to Penang, we were just sitting on one of the benches there. We were just talking, seeing people around us, and yet his hand will never fail to hold on me. Even though with sweaty palms, his grip will never loose its firmness. However, I admit, this was my 1st experience, even with just holding hands, I can feel what he was thinking, what he was trying to tell me, and what he was feeling. I am so glad, that I am back to him again...
(to be continued)
Yahoo...!!! I am back in Penang...home sweet home... Home...where I can feel the warmest from my family, place where I am pampered by him again...
Going to and fro several times, Malaysia-India, India-Malaysia, then Malaysia-India again, airport has become a very familiar place to me. It is the final destination for me, a place where either we have to separate for several months or place where I first met him again after a long time of separation. Although the same thing has happened again and again in this airport throughout these years, but they are always fresh in my mind, deep feelings inside my heart.
The first day 9/9/07,
I reached KLIA from Penang at about 1pm, and he was there very early in the arrival area. My heartbeat was jumping irregularly when I saw him waiting outside there. My feelings were all jumbled, happy or sad, no...I could not even tell what I actually felt. We had not seen each other for several weeks, and finally today we have met... But the saddest truth is, this was also the day which we had to separate, not just between Cyberjaya and Penang, but between 2 different countries where only several hours of flight can bring us back together.
It was 2pm. Couple more hours for us before my next flight to my final destination--India. Time was really limited, but we still have so many things to do together, so many things that I want to do for him, so many things to tell him, so many...so many...but no time... I was really helpless...
Very soon, it was time for us to separate. In front of the security gate, both our hands gripped very hard. He was reluctant to let go, and me too wanted to hold him as long as I can. But we could do nothing. Time to say goodbye...
(to be continued)
Remember 'back to the past'? Well, it did not just end like that. Besides the lovely surprise which is unforgettable, there are also many sweet memories happening that day...and they will never be erased off our mind.
It was 23/7/2007, where both of us had our 1st travel together in KL. Our first location is KLCC. We were just strolling around, doing some window-shopping. Since he came to MMU and I was still in Penang, we had not seen each other, doing some relax shopping together for quite some time. Holding her hands walking with no direction really enjoyable for me. In fact, it became one of my favourite hobbies^.^ After awhile, we saw a sign showing the way to KLCC Aquarius. Without any delay, we decided to have our very first underwater world experience..
It was really dark blue atmosphere inside Aquarius. We could actually feel like we were living in the sea. Cool?! First, we encoutered starfish...And you know? They let us take the starfish on our bare hands. I know starfish are beautiful (and tame too) but it was scary for me since they are also living creature right? Haha...but the starfish did not really move on my hands. And where is he? busying taking my photos lol=p
(Seeing her so lovely, I dare not even move my glance away from her..cuz I wouldn't want to miss a thing that moment)
Then there is this fish feeding area. Of course, both of us tried that too.
What I can recall that day was the fish seem to hate me. Non of them wanted to be fed by me. And what I didn't understand till now was I wonder wh
y all kinds of fish seem love to gather under his hands. They will swallow anything he gave. But for me? Anything I thrown to them, the food will sink just like that. Not even one was interested. Instead, his food seem attract every fish. I can't believe they love him more than me!!! Not fair>.<
After that, we went to find friends and had a great time chatting, eating throughout the night..
Even it was only 1-day trip, which is less than 24 hours, but still it will stay in our minds forever ever.
See, couples all around the world. Even in the underwater world... Haha.
Love is everywhere=p
And I wish that I can travel, not only in Malaysia, but to Europe, reaching the stars in Paris at the highest point of Eiffel Towel, discover the mystery of Egypt, walking to the end of Great Wall of China, enjoying autumn in Korea, and much much more.....someday, with only you my dear as my company. It is my biggest biggest dream..
Good Day Guys and girls=p, we came across this essay that was written by our sis. It captivated both our hearts alot that we think we should paste it here to share with everyone...
The night is a complete silence. Everyone is probably dreaming of curdling a huge bunch of American dollars, sunbathing under the shimmering sun in Hawaii or fantasizing being treated as a princess in a beautiful palace. Nevertheless, I am striving hard to plough on my piles of reference books in order to excel in my studies. However, I am not alone. My mother is accompanying me besides accomplishing her part-time job to yield more ringgits for supporting the family. She is the one who always supports me whenever I face obstacles, embraces me whenever sadness overwhelms me and shares the high times with me. She is the woman I love and treasure in my heart the most.
In 2006, when I was having my PMR government examinations, my family, including me, was traumatized with the news that my grandmother had diagnosed Malaria fever. We were petrified. We had a very hard time while my grandmother was admitted into the hospital. Sadness overwhelmed me when I saw my grandmother lying on the white bed motionless. Nevertheless, we were taken aback when the doctor advised that my grandmother had to been admitted to the intensive care unit as her health condition had being acute. One night, the doctor informed us that my grandmother blood level had been decreasing drastically. She needed blood. I was so feared. My tears rolled down frenziedly. However I tried my best to be calm. I wanted to donate my blood and yet I was not allowed as I was underage at that moment. I felt hopeless. However, with the eagerness to save my grandmother, I called my friends’ parents to seek for blood donation. Finally, the catastrophe ended as my grandmother recovered from the malicious disease.Thank god! As follows, I realise that life on earth is so fragile and hence the enthusiasm being a doctor to help people who are suffering devilish diseases is boosted.
Whenever I read news about Tee Hui Yi last year, who was kept alive with a mechanical heart for more than a year while she waiting for a suitable donor. I was having a mixture of feelings. I felt happy as she could continue her life with the advancement in medical field and empathizing her as well as she had to suffer all the obstacles while her others could enjoy their teenage life in her age. Finally, from God blessings she received a heart from a young donor. I was totally relieved at the moment. And yet, I felt sad too as the noble donor died at a young age. However, this defines life, which we cannot deny. Hence, this even in turns inspired me to be a doctor—a dutiful doctor, deeply.
Therefore, in order to make my aspirations become a reality, I always try my best to excel my school examinations with flying colors. Though sometimes I have been captivated by spellbinding English movies or maybe thrilling online games, I managed to pay heed to my studies again before it was too late to be regret of. As a dedicated class monitor, I am often committed to accomplish all the tasks that are given by my teachers and given the chance to learn leadership while holding the position. In school, sometimes, I might face some obstacles in carrying my duty as a class monitor and as a president of the tourism club or may be as a secretary of the school graduation magazine publishing organization, however, I would utilize the wisdom that I have to solve them.
At home, my mother teaches me to be honest as honesty is the best policy. Recalling back the primary school life, there was an incident which I will never forget. There was once, when my thinking was still immature and I got influenced by my peers, I bamboozled my mother that I was having a badminton practice in the school hall as teacher inquired, but in fact, it was a cover-up for me to loiter in the school compound partying with my friends. However, just after the moment I hung up the phone call with my mother, guilt overcame me and I felt remorseful, I immediately called my mother back and throwing out all the truth despite being evoking by my friends around. Minutes later, my mother came to pick me up. My heart was pulsating fast. I was waiting for my mother to throw all the tantrums on me. Nevertheless, my mother did not blame me at all, and yet she speaks to me in a soft tune “It’s okay, my darling. Do promise not to repeat this mistake again okay?”. I immediately burst into cries. I understand my mistake and I promise my mother not to lie again as I realise the significance of integrity. Since then, frankly, I barely lies.
As for the moment being, though I could not merge as the top girl of the school, but, I am contented when I acknowledge that I am one of the top students as I understand that this is the pay of my hard works. Hence, I will not give myself up easily and try to be persistent and consistent in obtaining excellence by hook or by crook.
I have to pay full concentration on my oncoming SPM examinations. I have to strive hard racking my brains to acquire excellent results. As this the best way for me to help alleviate the financial burden that distress them.
Written by Jas Cheong
We love you, Jas..
Keep it up!!!
I took this photo secretly when he is singing=p
Anyway, thanks alot ya dear. Love you very much. I can do this, for myself, and for you too...
Okay...got to go back study. He is mumbling there again. I wonder how much more he can mumble when he gets older^.^
Now that I'm in India, we live our life separately. I am still sleeping when he is already in class. I'm having my breakfast here but he's too early for lunch. It's time for him to go to bed, but the night is too young for me. Even when I'm having my university exam here, he is going to have a short holiday soon. Our life is totally different, 2 different life, 2 different country, 2 different timezone... So far away, I wish you were here...
We can't go out meeting each other. We can't go to a movie we love. We can't have our dinner together in one table. We can't study with each other sitting beside.
Somehow, I'm still going on. We have lived like this for almost one year. Everyday we can only on skype. This is the only way for us to see each other, our only dating time, our only dating activites. Even though I had to live my life alone here, but I know that somewhere out there, somewhere far far away, there's my only dear, thinking of me, praying for me, waiting for me...
I know we can make it through, we'll just have to keep holding on...
Since you came into my life, everything has changed. Though we are far apart now, I felt so in love. I love the times when we chat till dawn, like we have never talked for so long before. I love that I can still accompany you whenever you needed me. I love that I can still se
e your smiles on your face, knowing that you are happy. I love to know that I can still be with you even with the exist of the distance as a barrier. I love that I can still be there when you shed tears. I love the times when we are just staring at each other, knowing there's still me in your heart, knowing a part of me will always be with you..
I want my life to be lived with you. I live and breathe with you. The time I spent, waiting for you, never been a waste. It made me realise that I can't live my life without you. Even though there's time when we couldn't reach each other, I never feel lonely. I can feel you everywhere. There's something inside us, that make us feel in one. When I can't see you in day , I will close my eyes and I'll see you there.
Sweetheart..
I promise...you will never be lonely always. I'll find you everynight in your dreams...
I'm with you...
It's 18/12/2006, our former school organised a prom night for form six leavers. This was the night where everyone got to dress up as glamorous as we could, not to mention me.. I found a brown dress which I hoped to match with his outfit too. Feeling excited about tonight, I dressed up early, getting ready, waiting for him to fetch me from my house to Gurney Hotel. Time strike 6pm, he was here. Unexpectedly he wore a light yellow top which went well with my dress too. I felt so shy when I got into his car. Actually, tonight was not only our 1st night to a ball, but it was our 1st date too.. I felt so excited and yet afraid..
But still, luckily his table was just next to me. I still get to take a peek on him whenever I wanted to. Until the host finally announced that I get to choose 1 guy to walk on the so-called 'runway'. Immediately, I went to him.
m of holding her near, my dream of falling in love with her, my dream of my dreams to be alive.. I found my dream, on her... That night, we won everyone's attention. That was the night, I declared my love to her in front of everybody. At the end, she was crowned, the prom queen of the night. Yes, she was...and of course, is the queen of my heart.
The night finally over. He drove me home. I was so reluctant to leave him. Until I finally stepped out of his car, he stopped me. A bouquet of 'love' suddenly appeared on his hand. He said, 'Happy Birthday my girl. I love you..' He kissed on my cheek, which made me feel like I'm burning. I did not know what to do on that moment until he hugged me like it was the end of the world. I could not hide, his love was so strongly inside..
This is the Penang Batu Ferringhi beach, which is one of the famous tourist spots in Penang. Of course, it is one of our favourite places...share with u guys our memories in this lovely beach...
Then we crossed a place where horse-riding available. I looked at the horse. Well actually, I'm not that favour animals but somehow, I like this horse, which is called Hercules. Without second thoughts, Kai Zhian asked me for a horse ride. I climbed up the horse and he sat behind me. This was our first horse-riding and unexperienced us felt like falling whenever the horse took one step ahead. It did not seem as easy as the fairy tale how prince charming riding his horse to his princess. Nevertheless, we loved it! Riding on Hercules, feeling his hand always on me firmly like afraid of me falling down in any second, I felt like I am a princess at that moment. And yes, it was my fairy tale..
Sweetheart, can I be your prince in your fairytale?
Few months later, we went to this beach again. Actually, we were just wanted to relax. Nothing was planned that day. We walked along the beach, saw Hercules again.:) A beach boy came to us, asking " Do you both want to have a ride on Hercules?" I thought awhile, we smiled and answered him. "No, we took this before."
The next thing we saw was para-sailing. Wow!!! Amazing, they are flying so high up. I wanted to fly with my dear too. Immediately, I asked for the beach boy and then we were ready to fly...
'In the middle of blue sky, I am flying with my love one, Feeling the world is only us. Embracing her in my arms, afraid of her falling away from me. Kissing lightly on her pale cheeks, having no idea how much I love her. Holding her very closely by my side, together we are flying high up without wings...'
It was a drizzling midnight, no one walked around Cyberjaya.. There's no surprise that no vehicle racing along the road in Cyberjaya.. I dare not fell on the bed at this moment and I knew that if I fell on bed for 2 mins, I will be sleeping until the next morning for sure...And this will make me regret for life.
KL
It's been 1 year and 7 months our story continues. And now, we are 1 ocean away from each other. I'm studying medicine here in India and he is doing his financial engineering degree back in Malaysia. Both of us do not like this situation, which make us miserable quite a number of times. Whenever I need him, I can only see his face on skype. Laptop is one of the most important tool in my life now, because it is the only way for me to take a look at him each day..
Distance has made us suffer our loneliness, but actually it made us stronger too. We knew each other more, understand our own feelings more, and of course, we love each other more, deeply.
It's mid of July now and another 1 month exactly from now, Im coming back!!!
1 month away from now, I get to see his face closely, and not through the screen of my laptop anymore. 1 month away from now, I can feel his arms around me again. 1 month away from now, I can lean on his shoulder which is always there for me. 1 month away from now, I can feel his breath again that always makes me warm. 1 month away from now, I can whisper 'I love you' on his ears...
My darling, I really miss you...
saousaou here...
"14".. a very special day for both me and my dear kai zhian.
14/12/2006, a day I never expected it would ever be a reality in my life, a day where my all dreams came true, a day that I teared for touch, a day when I can finally felt the warmth of his arms... This is the day, that I can call him as 'my dear'...
I was secretly in love with him since I first met him in L6B4, lower six class. Destiny was made for us to be in the same class. And I can say that I have never felt my heart bumping so loudly before whenever I see him, even on his back. This is the moment which I treasured most. I was always sitting behind him where I could stare at him without anybody noticing it. But things changed when our Class Monitor asked us to switch our places. I was terrified and prayed softly in my heart, 'please let me be near him, please....' My prayer was answered. He sat right behind me!! Although I couldn't really looked at him secretly, but I could feel him behind me. Each time when I got the chance to turn behind, I always peek at him at the corner of my eye..(I hope he did not realise this) We merely talked to each other everyday, but each time when I get to talk to him, my heartbeat was irregular and I was nearly stopped breathing. I couldn't explain this, but I liked it:)
Time passed swiftly, we were separated from each other due to the sudden change of school rules. I was not his classmate anymore. But the feelings toward him never fade away. His class (B1) was far away from my class (B4), and each day I was hoping to meet him accidentally even just for 1 glance. I knew this was stupid but I couldn't control myself. I started to miss him...
Half year gone, without us contacting each other, my hope of getting to know him more was getting slimmer. I started to give up. But miracles do happen! Surprisingly, I got his first message. I did not understand how but he started to chat with me. Haha! I was so excited that day, till now I can still remember the content. 'hey, free to chat with me?' I know I was foolish. It was just 1 ordinary message but this was my chance, to get to know more about him, to be closer with him... Since then, we were starting to be closer, as friends of course, we chat alot, even till midnight, or dawn...until STPM, when he suddenly stop contacting me anymore because of exams.
Exams over... we were back to normal. He started to message me again. We went out for some times and finally one day...which was out of my expectation, he confessed!! He asked if he can be my boyfriend. We went out to a restaurant near my house, and that was when I gave him my answer. I saw him shaking throughout the night, actually I was shaking terribly inside too... Both of us never expect this.
This is the day...14/12/2006... the gift of my life. And out story goes on...til now..
I love you very much...my dear most kai zhian.
